Salam everyone,
One post a month huh? Oh my... Terrible... My hiatus was not an intended one. It was more akin to a less inspiration + exasperation...? Well, since this
is my blog so I might as well spill it out here but rather in a concealed
manner. September left me dumbfounded with so many things; personal issues,
office feud, modeling career and even my parenting skills. I felt so numb upon
returning from my short getaway at Cameron Highland with my family. I didn't
expected that though. I thought I would be recharged and rejuvenated but I
reckon Allah has better plans for me.. I have to believe that, right?
I went for my aerobic class last night after being hiatus
for 6 weeks. Subhanallah, it is so difficult to 'move on' when you just had a
terrible fall. Dwell in my self-insecure bubble is sure not a healthy thing. It
swallows you further into darkness. Feeling void. Feeling numb. Morbid. I had
to drag myself and trudge to the fitness studio as an attempt to eschew from
this dreadful exasperation. But when the music starts; you begin to feel
rejuvenate.... Among the things I love about aerobic (significant to mention : it
is actually Jazzercise) is that I don't bequeath my attention on the dance /
physical movement but rather on the selected music. The music selection may seem
as trifling but it isn't. And apparently they played Britney's song "Ooh
La La" the OST for Smurfs 2. Oh Britney.... my idol throughout
adolescences years. Old images began flashing through my mind like a short
Powerpoint slide show. And there it was; I felt it again.. that adolescence
feeling.. that sentiment that reminded you when you were young, naive, carefree
and most of all OPTIMISTIC.
I totally forgot the virtue of being optimistic and as human
beings, we do need to be reminded; perennially. So I decided that I hold the reign to my fate. I
am not defying Allah's will but I refuse fatalism and opt not to retaliate to
the people who drown me. I think (actually I chose) to totally ignore you and pretend we never met. And having said that, I will regain my strength and be
on my feet again. Time heels everything so that is all I need, time. Perhaps I must continue and be more discipline with my
aerobic regime huh. Best way to remain optimistic!
Apart from my meltdown here, I would like to share my
newfound love for oversized shawls. But, what if they are crumpled and scratchy
that don't require any ironing? Furthermore, it is dual tone...? You like that
don't you? Oh my... melting.... recently I just shoot the latest shawl
collections from GetGorgeous Boutique. I love the shawls so much that Adzlia
was so kind giving one as a gift... Auuuw...
Wear them with a matching colorful inner for more cheerful look
Or match them a simple black inner with one of your abayas
Now, here is how you were a dual
tone shawl..
Or you can even style it like theseeee
Check them out at : GetGorgeous Boutique
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